This is a something I ought to have written years ago. But for various reasons, I have kept it under wraps. Reasons of “deer in the headlights” syndrome come to mind, along with feelings of despair, numbness. Retaliation. Stigma. Part of me wanted to see how long it would continue and to give the persons involved the opportunity to reveal themselves, because in crimes like this, it’s always someone close.
It had no name.
All I knew was that I was the recipient of pages and pages of vitriol, slander, threats, defamation, and character assassination by persons unknown for reasons unknown.
The impact was felt emotionally, mentally, physically and decimating financially. The only core it could not touch was my spiritual center. I’ve been a practicing Tibetan Buddhist for a very long time.
I was happily married to a German citizen, living in Bavaria. Our morning ritual included a pre-dawn walk, candle light breakfast over tea and toast. As time went on this cozy ritual would be interrupted by the glow of a twelve-inch laptop monitor. Dream imagery, discussion and meaning replaced by strings of turbulent keywords. And the only replies echoed via email to the GOOGLE search address , asking, demanding, imploring them to remove the vitriol from their search engine that invaded our lives.
Imagine waking up in the morning, over tea and toast, querying your name via the GOOGLE search engine and finding something like this:
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What is still infuriating and wounding is that these allegations, the defamation and character assassination of homemade sex videos, pornography etc … DO NOT exist. They are all lies.
These are just a few examples. I have nearly 100 pages in my archive.
Now, imagine your name and you characterized and/or described as such, and these variations cited ten times per GOOGLE page, 3 or 4 pages deep into the GOOGLE search engine.
1. What are the chances of you landing the desired employment interview when all prospective employers conduct a google search?
2. Do you think this would impact upon your current or future employment status?
3. Do you think it might impact upon your social relationships. Your standing in the community?
This phenomena occurred solely via the GOOGLE search engine.
I filed a complaint with the GOOGLE. They ignored it.
In fact, I came to find that GOOGLE does not honor their own abuse policy. What GOOGLE did however, was to issue a warning highlighted in red of the citations that might harm your computer.
Then the stalking became more aggressive.
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When I saw the citation above I began to worry. Not only was this cyber-stalking directed at me, but it in my same breath, it also mentioned the life of former Wall Street Journal reporter Daniel Pearl. The date this citation appeared coincided with the opening date of the film ” A Mighty Heart” in New York. I double and triple checked.This was deliberate. Someone knew what they were doing.
I went to the ICANN website. Filed a complaint against GOOGLE. Informed GOOGLE ABUSE that I had filed this complaint. It all disappeared in 20 minutes. Over breakfast.
Now, that is what I call responsive.
GOOGLE regarding your architecture & ADWORDS FOR ADVERTISING – which is a keyword based technology – if this technology can be used to identify keywords to target advertising, why can’t this same technology and architecture apply in locating keywords that identify abuse, defamation, hate, violence human-trafficking/slavery ? There is a current petition circulating via Change.org requesting GOOGLE to stop GOOGLE ADWORDS that contribute to the trafficking of women and girls and sex tourism.
The petition is here
Racism, sexism, misogyny, violence and hate are inherent and integral in your architecture. You provide the means and are thus complicit.
One of the most common questions asked of me is, “How do you know this is directed toward you?
My reply is, very few people knew that one of my best friends in Germany is from the Dakotas, or that I had been photo-documenting a denkmal or art memorial based on the holocaust, and even fewer people knew of my emergency room hospital visit in Bavaria.
My German friend from the Dakotas, her Facebook avatar is of big game, native to the Dakotas. The bison.
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The cyber-attacks continued. During their zenith, my husband separated from me. I lost my prospective employment. I nearly lost my life. All within ten days. I’m sure this fabricated ground contributed to my past and current legal tug of war with the German Ausländerbehörde over my legal right to work and reside in Germany.
In my anguish and despair, some of my colleagues advised me to, “Ah just ignore it.” “Ignore the cyberstalking.” Most of this advice came from men.
What they fail to recognize is this – the truth – which is when you are an independent freelance photojournalist and a woman, life is already challenging enough. With the plethora of garbage published about me on the most utilized search engine in the world, defamation like this is injurious to one’s reputation and thus pocketbook. I’m sure editors thought twice or thrice before hiring me or using any of my photographs with my byline. After all, as journalists, our bylines, our reputations are our currency – worth their weight in gold and more important than money.
Prolonged threats like this make one feel vulnerable and can contribute to isolation. Vulnerable in concern for one’s safety and livelihood. Isolation because of the toxicity. I remember distinctly the cues dropped by some of my colleagues. The look of bewilderment on their faces. “Why would anyone do this?” “All those things said about you.” As if I were contagious or that it might contaminate them, or rub off on them. “Why would someone do this?”
Because they can. Because they are hiding behind a computer screen and it is very difficult to hold people like this accountable. Why did Rush Limbaugh publicly attack Georgetown university student Sandra Fluke? Because he can, he has, and no one would hold him accountable .. Until now. Listen to Sandra Fluke’s reply here
In 2010 I returned to Germany for my divorce. This time a little wiser and smarter, only telling a handful of people of my return when I arrived. Literally, only five people knew where I was and that I was back in Germany. Within ten days of my return the cyber-stalking began. It looked like this:
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Later I noticed my name starting to appear in guest books with “members only” requirements.
Careful not to jeopardize my employment opportunities, I filed another complaint against GOOGLE with ICANN and INTERPOL. This time, the spam was gone in 24-hours. In a few days I was interviewed and hired.
For clarity’s sake and for the record I do not have a criminal background nor do I participate in online dating sites nor in chat rooms. No one is deserving of this kind of violence. No one including me.
In 2011 due to the numerous unfortunate circumstances of teen suicide in connection to cyber-spamming/hate and stalking, the media, the press, therapists, celebrities, talk-show hosts have started to take this a lot more seriously. Good thing.
To reemphasize, this is/was injurious to me on all levels – emotionally, physically, and mentally, it devastated me financially. The only part of me it did not decimate was my spiritual center. Just like any violence directed toward women the repetition of the crime is reliving the crime all over again. In my case speaking, reading, and in the beginning the need to convince and educate was reliving it constantly, and this consumed a lot of my creativity, resolve, and energy.
Please see this link -specific to
H.R. 3402 (109th): Violence Against Women and Department of Justice Reauthorization Act of 2005
cyber-stalking sections 113 – 115
“It is not fair to ask of others what you are not willing to do yourself.”
― Eleanor Roosevelt
Truthfully, if this happened to a friend, or another woman, I would encourage them to take action, stand up and speak up for themselves. So I’ve decided to be my best friend and to do the same for me.
My heartfelt love and gratitude to my friends new and old, and my colleagues who have stood beside me, supported me, and encouraged me. Thank you.
If you wish to read an update to this post, please go to this link http://wp.me/s12Vav-untitled
Below is a chronology of the cyber-spamming reports filed vis-á-vis Google Webmaster tools. Page one of two.